As of today, 11/16/16 I am currently having some serious issues.
I have a severe vascular problem. I have abnormally small veins to begin with that have become severely restricted, my main veins in my groin and lower abdomen that have over time become more restricted and has become permanent and can not be operated on or bypassed. I can’t do anything more labor intensive than walking like a snail without loosing my breath and accelerating my heart rate. The condition causes my legs, ankles and feet to swell to the point of agonizing pain. I suffer from severe leg craps and sleeplessness. I have severe disc degeneration in my neck and lower back that is causing nerve pain in my arms and random twitching when I relax to go to sleep. I am currently on a number of blood thinning medication to help prevent any further blockage or clot movement, as well as anxiety and depression medication.
And, If you know me… I’ve been transformed into a new creature. I have literally went from understanding nothing and questioning everything to understanding everything and questioning nothing. I am not just a believer in God… I acknowledge his Live living presence and voice. I am a complete outcast for professing these things. I don’t have any delusions of immortality, I’m not on anxiety/depression medication because I can no longer physically function as I use to. I do not live in the world of self preservation and lusts of the flesh. I am content with the factual reality that my flesh body will return to dust. The anxiety and depression is a result of living in the realm of the spirit. I am talking about actually acknowledging the reality of my eternal soul and who it belongs to. I am talking about being depressed because I know there are so few that dwell in the same place I do. The world is in complete denial that it is completely oblivious to the living God of Spirit and that their flesh life is coming to an abrupt end sooner than it is capable of acknowledging. It is depressing beyond imagination!